Warning: In a Food Rut
Project 365, Day 206/365
Normally on Saturdays or sometimes Sundays, I share some recipe ideas for what to cook in the upcoming week. It’s mostly for myself, to plan my meals, and then I take it to the blog because some of you like it. It’s probably my least popular blog post of the week in terms of traffic, but I do it anyway because I don’t really care about things like traffic.
But today, I couldn’t do it. Let me explain.
I mentioned at some point last week that I was restarting my elimination diet to reintroduce properly, since the last time I did strict diet modifications (for 21 days), I felt some relief in how my body felt. But today…was rough. The only thing I wanted was gluten, covered in dairy, followed by sugar. When it came to figure out dinner, I stood in the living room and cried to an unsuspecting Charles who was just sitting on the couch, trying to watch some photography videos on YouTube. “I just want a pepperoni pizza!!” I said through sobs. In case you were wondering, I’m not the least bit dramatic. 😉
The last time I did this, it felt so easy. So purposeful. But this time, it’s been so, so hard. I’m hungry even though I eat all day, I never feel satisfied with my meals even though they are full of protein, greens, vegetables, legumes. It’s only been a week, so I know it can be tough, but woof is this hard this time around. GIVE ME A PIZZA!!!
It certainly doesn’t help that I’ve taken to watching videos and reels of things like macaroni and cheese on Instagram. Don’t ask me why I’m choosing to torture myself so, I just am. The thought of any of the food I’m able to eat makes me queasy. I want none of it. I just want a hunk of baguette slathered in butter with some sharp cheese on top.
So, that said, I’m not really in any position to share recipes with you because I sat here, trying to come up with a list of what I’m going to make next week, and my list is empty. I could make pasta with some Banza (made of chickpea flour and not that awful) but the thought of having that without any parmesan just depresses me. Chili sounds alright but all I can think about is the cheese and sour cream that won’t be accompanying it. I’ll snap out of it. This is more important and worthwhile than some shredded cheese, I know. I’m just in a food funk today. Here’s to hoping next week is a little easier and I start feeling something shift, because that always makes it easier.
I will admit. At some point today, I said to Charles that I hope I don’t actually feel any better doing this this time, because then it means the food has no effect on my muscles and tension headaches. He laughed, and say “hey, at least you’re being honest.”
Anyhow, that’s where I am today (well, technically, Saturday night). I know a handful of you regularly eat vegan (I’m eating meat currently, just no sugar, dairy or gluten) or are following some other special diets, so I’d love to have YOU share what you plan on making this week, or even just things you’ve made that have been satisfying. I’M DESPERATE FOR IDEAS.
See you tomorrow, FOAS.